Father my HEART longs to be saturated by YOU;

To say and do the things YOU do.

Father my HEART beats to live with zero concept of the cost;

To not think TWICE about what the world says… ‘I lost’

Father my HEART burns to preach like those of old;

Whom with tears flowing your SALVATION was the story they told.

Father my HEART’S desire is to be KNOWN among your throne;

To dance for you…even if I’m dancing ALONE.

Father my HEART aches to know YOU as you know ME;

To touch, feel and see the things you see.

Father my HEART cries for justice for those left un-reached;

Would you equip my heart to go…

My will would you teach?

Father my HEART is crushed when I hear of those whom protest with ‘Your way’ they are DONE!

Would you grab my hand and after them could we RUN????

Father my HEART’S desire is to behold your beauty and look upon your face;

To sit at YOUR feet….to feel your embrace.

Father my HEART believes things my MIND wont understand;

Oh! how this is the result of trusting the unseen HAND.

Father my HEART …with  urgency…wants to leave it all behind;

This action is a lonely road but at the end your PROMISE is what I find.

 

This my faithful father is my HEARTS DESIRE……Would you burn away anything left.. with your VOICE OF FIRE!

(Psalm 29:7)

Cant sleep….thats been a normal thing for the past month or so. I havnt decided if its good or not…but i figure if Jesus is dealing with my heart than it has to be a good thing. Im stuck on the topic or heart issue shall i say about our personalities. What exactly is a personality and who says which ones are ‘christ like’ and which ones are just a little ‘Too much’ You know those people who are so sweet and just DRIPPING with meakness. It seems like you could run over there toe with your car and their response would be nothing less than..”Its ok…really …bless the Lord it could of been worse”  But then there are the A-type …all over the place..you know they have entered the building …types of people. So my question is which of these should we model our behavior after? What if our personality swings a little more toward one? Is there such thing as ‘re-modeling’ our personality or are our personalities blessings the Lord has given us to reach a certain group of people. Where does the line get drawn between recognizing and appreciating our humanity yet pushing forward into cultivating the likeness and ‘personality’ of Jesus??  He has made us all beautiful yet SO different at the same time. I think the start of a life lived with..’Clean hands and a pure heart’ comes from loving the heart and mind he has given us yet daily laying it ALL down.  I dont really think Jesus despises either types of ppl. Matter of fact i believe he ENJOYS variety as long as its bringing pleasure to his heart! WHich brings me to this thought.. Let us not look down on the person who prefers to dance a little more on the loud side of life if he is choosing to dance for the Lord!! (What did David do!?) Let us remember that our God is the God of so many different cultures and breeds of people…..why would he want one mass group of humans whom looked all alike ONLY because they thought the Lord desired ONE PERSONALITY…ONE WAY OF WORSHIP and ONE WAY OF INTERCESSION. The majestic God we serve only desires ONE thing that all of us alike HAVE…thats OUR HEARTS.

My prayer tonight is that my heart is HIS…totally surrendered. And that through that daily renewing he will construct my ‘Personality’ to be of one that is pleasing to him and a sweet fragrance to others. Let us all live in FREEDOM with the confidence that he has made us all different ON PURPOSE. Do not strive to be a Pastor if he has called you to Work in the business world…Do not run yourself dry trying to be a teacher if he has called you to stay at home and raise your children. And do not be a ‘Someone else’ when he has called you to be a ‘YOU’……. There are others waiting for you to walk out your story..dont waste your time trying to live out someone elses!

“For I know the plans I have FOR YOU…Declares the Lord…” Jer. 29:11

-H

Im writing right now from a quaint little coffee shop in Charlottesville Virginia. Oh how i love coffee! But especially with the view of such a small little town! I love it..cool breeze….the smell of grass..and a ‘everyone knows everyone’ feel..NOTHING BETTER than this! The Lord seems to always hit me with the reality everytime i visit somewhere new that there are OTHER people that he is after than just the ones i ‘know about’ in my community. Just try this..when your on the road take a second to observe all the cars coming and going. The Lord hears every single person…in every single car PLUS there families!!! GOSHHH now multiply that times like every city in EVERY country and even the places we have never heard of! YES OUR GOD IS THAT BIG!…And YES WE ARE THAT SMALL!!! haha…But thats what makes serving him all the more FUN!

Tom. onto D.C to attend ‘The call’ …check it out…  www.thecall.com

Much love!-H  

I realized the post before didnt really go into detail about how my life has changed and what im doing now. So im going to take the next couple minutes and try to give you guys a short picture of where God has me now. READYYYYY…..

So I came to Kansas City to do a summer internship called ‘Luke18′ its based off of the passage in the bible about the persistant widow. The purpose for the program is to take the ‘idea’ of 24/7 prayer back to your college campuses. The internship started the beg. of July and ended  Aug. 3rd. It was alot of teaching and basically equipping to be sent back home. WELLLL the first week we were here i felt the Lord begin to start tugging on my heart to give him atleast a year to just sit at his feet and learn. So i weighed my options of how that ‘would look’ and what exactly i needed to do when i got home. But through diff. dreams and confirmations the Lord made it clear that he wanted me to leave all that i was familiar with and follow him into the wilderness where ..”He could speak softly to me and turn my valley of anchor into a door of HOPE” (Hosea) This was a HUGE and SCARY step to leave behind all that i know for something i was so unsure of. But in the middle of all the questions was a overwhelming peace. So after talking with my parents and leadership back home i made the plans i needed to make and got things in place and have started in this journey of just learning from Jesus. I have realized that the closer I draw to him the more I need him. In such a gentle but powerful way he has exposed my weaknesses and confirmed his word….HEATHER-”Apart from me you have NO GOOD THING” He is everything good in my life. We have nothing to offer yet his favorite thing to do is talk to us…be in relationship with us…REALLY know us. He is worthy of so much more than a ‘Bless the dinner’ prayer or a ‘Go through the motions’ Christian walk. Guys…he is worthy OF OUR LIVES. Nothing LESS…And he wont relent until he has it ALL. Hes so faithful to you and your family..Dont forget it.

So this is my walk right now…Louisiana is still my home..(spicy food..SWEET TEA…ohhhhhh YESSS) And HPC is still my church. I know i can say with an honest heart that Pastor Dino..who i consider a huge voice in my life..Has shown and set me on  the path of a hard pursuit after Jesus and others. His love and compassion far out weighs anyones that i know. I can truly say My pastor has the likeness of Jesus. I am so thankful.

 So if you think about it you could send a bottle of tobasco my way….or maybe some crawfish Love and miss you all…see ya soon! Heather

Isaiah 58:8

Sorry its been awhile since i have posted on here. I have been busy here in Kansas City with an internship (Luke 18) at IHOP. It has just finished and the Lord has not released me from this season so i will actually be going to school here! Im very excited for this time in my life. Its a chance to start over and let Jesus really work on my heart. He has been showing himself to me in a very real way. He is simply amazing

However I am missing MY FAMILY back home. But oh how blessed I am…if is wasnt for them i wouldnt be here taking this adventure of a LIFETIME!….Speaking of my family i have to give a shout out to my little sis..SHE IS BEAUTIFUL! She had her Navigate graduation the other night and man from the pictures she looked SMOKINNNNN!!! I really hate that i had to miss it…shes growing up before my eyes! I love you Cara and am sooooooooooooo proud of you!

STAY AWAY FROM BOYS!

“TRUE RELIGION will not let us fall asleep in the midst of our FREEDOM”

“What I am INTERESTED in is seeing you do this:

Sharing your food with the hungry, inviting the homeless poor into your homes, putting clothes on the shivering ill-clad, being available to your own family. DO THIS and the lights will turn around at once. YOUR RIGHTEOUSNESS will pave your way. The God of glory will SECURE your passage. Then when you pray, God WILL answer. YOU WILL CALL OUT for help and ILL say

‘HERE I AM’ -Isaiah 58:8

So many things to be thankful for yet on the top of my list ..Healing Place Church. Thank you Jesus for setting a LIGHT in such a dark world….Bringing HEALING …to a hurting place.  And taking ordinary ppl. to demonstrate your GLORY. Our future is SO BRIGHT..

Thank you Jesus!

Its been awhile…forgive me for not keeping this updated. Alot of changes have occured in my life the past month. God is all about CHANGE and I have found that whenever you become comfortable and ‘ok’ with your life HE likes to shake it up a bit. Right now as I write this i am in Arkansas with some friends looking forward to visiting a friends church tom. morning. I have been at IHOP (International House of Prayer) Simply seeking Gods face and embracing his love for me. Change is scary..and alot of the time can rob you of just sitting at the feet of your SAVIOR. Im learning this…learning to become a little less like Martha and alot more like Mary…To LOVE him more instead of trying to impress him with my ‘works’..Hes teaching me what TRUE BEAUTY is…and also what its not. Im finding that until I find the Beauty in my JESUS i wont ever be able to put my finger on what the word ‘Beautifull’ REALLY means. Im finding IM NOTHING  without him..and my NEED for him is a non-negotionable. This morning I had so much on my mind that i wanted to PRAY about…like HARD CORE pray about. So i started first thing naming off ALL the things that have been a concern to me. Then just like a calm and gentle wind I heard HIS voice…the voice that silents every other thought…the voice that calms the storms in my heart…the voice that commands every false lie to bow at HIS feet. HIS VOICE simply whispered..’ STOP STRIVING HEATHER…Just BE and let me love on you..let me hold you…and let me STRENGHTEN you. I LOVE that you want to earnestly seek me..but now…this moment..All I desire is for you to just BE..and let ME’

Waiting and sitting..NOT EASY…but very much needed when you are living a FAST PACED life..like most of us. He cares for ALL of our WORRIES…but sometimes He just wants us to BE. No striving…no craziness..just to SIT at the feet of Jesus…Letting him love on you..calm us…just to BE with us. A couple weeks ago admist a bunch of life changes I asked him this question..’LORD WHAT AM I DOING!!!??? What is this season of my life going to look like??’ Tears falling down like crazy ..I sat until i felt his tug on my heart..’You are learning how to love me Heather..NOTHING  more NOTHING less…But above this you are LETTING me love you…and that my daughter is my FAVORITE thing to do..so just BE and LEARN HOW TO TRULY LOVE ME’

Love HIM today…WAIT FOR HIM TODAY…But better yet..let him LOVE YOU today…Be quiet at the feet of Jesus….listen and just BE

” From of old no one has heard or perceived by the ear, NO eye has seen a GOD BESIDES YOU, Who ACTS for those who WAIT FOR HIM”- Isaiah 64:4

‘There is no love SWEETER than the love you POUR ON ME;

There is no song SWEETER than the song YOU SING TO ME.

There is no place that I would rather BE..Than here at YOUR FEET LAYING DOWN EVERYTHING.

All to you I SURRENDER…EVERYTHING.. every part of ME..All to you I SURRENDER..ALL OF MY DREAMS ALL OF ME..ALL of ME…

If worships like perfume ill POUR MINE OUT ON YOU…For there is none as derserving of my LOVE LIKE YOU,

SO take my hand and draw me INTO YOU..I want to be SWEPT AWAY.. LOST IN LOVE FOR YOU.

All to YOU I SURRENDER…Everything ..EVERY PART OF ME…ALL TO YOU I SURRENDER..ALL OF MY DREAMS…ALL of ME..All to you I SURRENDER..EVERYTHING..EVERY PART of me..ALL TO YOU I SURRENDER..ALL OF MY DREAMS..ALL OF ME..

I SURRENDER..Because I TRUST YOU GOD..I SURRENDER..ALL my HOPE IS IN YOU..I SURRENDER..I PLACE ALL MY TRUST IN YOU God..Because YOUR WAYS are FAR ABOVE mine. NO turning back…IV’E MADE up MY MIND..I’m giving ALL of MY LIFE THIS TIME..

YOUR LOVE MAKES IT WORTH IT ALL…YOUR LOVE MAKES IT WORTH IT..YOUR LOVE MAKES IT WORTH IT ALL…ITS YOUR LOVE that makes it worth it..I CAN LAY everything down because of YOUR LOVE..

All to YOU I SURRENDER…ALL OF ME LORD…I SURRENDER’ – Kim Walker ‘I surrender’

 

So we have been back from India for 3 days now. Even though this was my first time out of the country im pretty sure i know what jet lag feels like !!!!!! I think i have slept the weekend away!

 I would try and go in to detail and write this long post summing up my trip. But theres just no way..words really cant describe what amazing things God did! Not only there but in my heart as well. I think my mind is still processing things…and my heart still soaking everything in. I really never knew the depth of what pain and hurt and poverty lie past the American lines…i had seen pictures and heard stories. But my eyes have seen first hand..and ill never be the same. I have a new heart for not only the poor..and forgotten but also for the ppl. who reach down into the worst places ever to rescue those who have been pushed aside. I always longed to have that heart …the heart Jesus has..the heart that desires to go where noone dares to go…love those who everyone rejects and embrace those that the world classifies as ‘Filthy…worthless…..trash’ i could want that kind of heart more than ANYTHING..but Jesus ..knowing me better than i know myself..knew that until i was taken out of everything i KNEW..my comfort places ..that i could never develop that heart. Making me face my fears…rise above myself…and die to my pride were some hard things. But the reward was MORE THAN WORTH IT! I learned that sometimes HEs just waiting on US to take that first step of faith…sometimes thats all we have the strength to do, But after that first step….what you cross over into will shake your world and leave you saying..’ My life Lord….I OWE IT ALL TO YOU’ So my challenge to you ….Shake off the blinders that paralize you to only see ‘Inward’.. and CHOSE to focus your attention upon the face of Jesus! He has more for you then just LIVING YOUR LIFE. There are ppl that he has called YOU to reach..hearts he has called YOU to heal and lives he has called YOU to rescue! He has a mandate for YOUR life….what is it? …I promise you when you decide to rejoice in your present season and use your struggles to ignite a FIRE in someone elses  life youll find your destiny! youll find JESUS! My prayer for you is that HE will.. ’Heal your heart and make it clean..OPEN UP YOUR EYES TO THE THINGS UNSEEN’

This i know…its the things UNSEEN that CHANGE YOUR LIFE- H